Meeting someone, getting the ‘is-the-one-I-was-waiting-for’ feel, exchanging rings and lo! starts the courtship period. It’s the time when you actually enjoy the tingling feeling in your stomach, smile for no reason, sneak time to look at pictures-of-togetherness, daydreaming doesn’t seem wrong anymore, your eyes sparkle and makes your heart beat faster.
Just when you are basking in this love-is-in-the-air glory, and look forward to enjoying it to the fullest, you are made to realize that it is not that simple. Trust me, the sadness in your heart is worse than anything else. Dealing with it is not easy wherein you have to set aside your expectation to keep pace with someone-special’s. If you are the emotional sorts, you will have to squash your I-want-to-live-these-moments and force yourself to take it slow. It is not easy when the other couples who vouch about their wonderful magnetic courtship period and how they fell in love with each other – and you are left wondering why the cupid’s arrow is not effective on your someone-special. It is very natural to lose confidence in yourself and have am-I-not-worth-it thought.
When you should be waiting to hear those rosy words to make you go red, you are busy finding hidden meanings from your last conversation. Did someone-special meant this or that? You are trying to find out time from your busy work-schedule and coping with the beautiful phase of your life however your someone-special is perpetually busy. Is ‘love molecule’ not working the same way on your someone-special as it is on you? You had a list of attributes but you just end up falling in love with the person who possesses none of them. Damn, the endorphins reaction!!
Discussing ‘this’ feeling with your someone-special is not easy so early in the relationship, especially during your courtship period – which should be painted in love. You feel the adrenaline gushing up in your blood whenever you want to talk about it. Struggling to become a mind-reader (wish there was an online course!), you share your views on the relationship. It is hard when your views are considered as too-much-expectations however someone special is just sharing what is uncomfortable; your expectations are shrugged off as finding faults however someone-special is sharing perspective.
Is it expecting too much, if:
- Wishing for a midnight call on your birthday
- Wishing for a brief chit-chat
- Wishing to be someone-special’s special
- Wishing to talk on phone maybe twice a week
- Wishing to share and know what is happening in each other’s life
- Wishing for a ‘just-like-that’ call once in a while
- Wishing to make someone-special make you believe that love does exist in this world
Sometimes the simplest solutions are the most difficult to achieve! However the moment is lost.
Cherry on top - Just when you are stressing yourself out, questions from the people in your real world make it difficult for you. To quench their curiosity about your courtship-love, you can’t help but paint a picture where you make everyone believe that everything is perfect and it’s a smooth flow – Not the right thing, your heart says, but you do not want to give them a dinner-table topic.
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